The Goodness of God

The wisdom that is found in the Bible through the account of Job's experience being tested has been something that has grounded me over the past year or so.

About a year a go when I was really struggling with being unwell and the reality of needing major surgery I felt like I was losing my faith. Wile I still felt close to God, I was just in a space where I was over being upset about bad things because I felt that if I didn't have bad experiences, how would I know what good was. I remember discussing this with a workmates and she said it was a bit like the yin and yang theory. Sometime later, I was flicking tv channels one night when I was in too much pain to sleep and came across someone preaching on this verse.

"His wife said, “Still holding on to your precious integrity, are you? Curse God and be done with it!”

He told her, “You’re talking like an empty-headed fool. We take the good days from God—why not also the bad days?”

Not once through all this did Job sin. He said nothing against God."

Job 2:9-10

I was blown away. There in the Bible was the very thing I had been thinking and feeling. I spent the next few months reading and re-reading the book of Job. There is so much wisdom in this book that gave me so much hope through the pain I was experiencing. I have been left with the overwhelming feeling that if I had never experienced pain and suffering that I could not understand the goodness of God.

The last few days have been very emotional for me. I feel like I cried a river yesterday. In between the tears I had the courage to go to the baby shower and I was surprised that I enjoyed myself. I am so thankful for my friends who have been so understanding of my emotions and allowed me the freedom to walk through the last few days without having to hide my tears.

And once again I am reminded of God's goodness. I am blessed with friends who are so kind, caring and unselfish. Who want the best for me and are there for me when I need help to pick myself up and carry on with my journey.